kevsdragonfly

Our stories are so similar. Sudden, traumatic losses after only having 5 years together. Kevin was 43. This isn't what we planned, is it? It's not at all how I thought our life would be, and my heart breaks daily. ((hugs)) back at you. Thank you all for your kindness. My heart goes out to you all as well.

Thank you, Justin. I'm sorry for your loss as well. Day-by-day is all I can do right now.

Thank you, Jess. I'm sorry for your loss as well. Yes, sometimes it IS like I'm describing something that's happened to someone else. Thank you for the warm welcome.

New member here. I'm so happy that a friend told me about this forum. Kevin was the love I'd waited for all my life. We were together 6 years, but it seemed like I'd known him all my life. He died suddenly of a heart attack, here in our home. I was here and have experienced such trauma from his death. I heard him fall but couldn't get to him. EMTs had to break our bathroom door down, but it was too late. I'm still in shock describing the event, and learning that he did not survive. He was 43. They needed to check his pulse again - he's just passed out, I told them. I think that, all things considered, I'm doing ok. I take life one minute, one hour at a time. I have good moments when I can laugh about a memory, and I have complete meltdowns - at home, at work, at the grocery store. There is no planning when it will it me in the face that he is gone. Thank you all for understanding. I feel I'm in a safe place here and can openly share with you all.