Mlb34u

I understand what you are going through. I am new here but I lost my husband on October 7 when he laid down to take a nap and his heart had some strange misfire and he died in his sleep. My 12 yr old was home with him while I was at work and went to ask him something and he wasn't breathing. Now she doesn't like for me to nap and comes to wake me up just, to see if I am alive. It is heartbreaking. He was just 46.

A friend recommended this website to me. I lost my husband on October 7, 2015. He was just 46. He had a cardio inversion the day before and the next morning said he felt great. We both went into work late that day. We homeschool our only daughter who is 12. She does her schooling online and goes with him to his office a couple days a week. He was a pastor. I went to my office and we usually meet for lunch but didn't that day. My daughter called me frantically around 4:05 to tell me he wasn't breathing. He had taken a nap and didn't wake up. I work about 8-10 min away but didn't make it home in time. A neighbor police officer got to her pretty quickly since I had called 911. My life is so changed. He was the one who paid the bills and was the main source of income. I feel so lost and sometimes feel like I am sinking into a depression. I make it because the doctor has prescribed me medicine to help me. I don't like taking it but it is the only thing that keeps me on an even emotional state. My daughter has been so strong but just recently started breaking down. We are talking to a school psychologist friend tomorrow night. I know it is the holidays approaching that makes me feel so lonely. I have a great church family that supports me in many ways. My daughter is also an all star cheerleader and my cheer family is so very supportive to us. But there are so many times I feel alone and it is hard because I don't know anyone else that has lost a spouse at my age. We were supposed to grow old together. I don't even like the term widow. I hope to find some comfort here.