Quiet Storm

I could have written the exact same thing, except the only difference is I had 20 to your 25. All of the juggling gets to me. I did not choose this life, and I most certainly did not contribute to the situation I am in, but here I am. Why? F if I know.

I get it, but you never know what road those elderly couples took to get where they are. One or both of them could have been widowed. It could be a second or third chance at love. On another note, my m-i-l died two years ago, and, after 55 years with his wife, my f-i-l is having such a hard time. I mean, what a luxury to have your spouse for that long, but my goodness. It's eye opening to see grief in advanced age.

Aren't we here to talk about our lives as widow/ers? Please feel free to PM me if you want. I feel your frustrations.

Ugh. I am so, so sorry. At least you know that you've helped your students along the way. Maybe now's not the right time to say it, but really, that's so important.

Mrs Dan- That is so sweet! There are so many little, unexpected things that I didn't know I missed. I don't mean gifts or flowers or acts of chivalry. I mean when my partner makes me drink a glass of water or eat a piece of fruit bc he knows I have forgotten to do such basic things. It feels nice to be cared for.

Thank you, Mizpah. It means a lot that someone else can relate. To be honest, I am not sure if I am simply pining for the past or if the problems my current partner manifests are simply not for me. Or both. But that's something I have to figure out.

I am so pissed off today. While my marriage to my late husband was not perfect, I will say that we got along perfectly. In our 20 years together, we never fought, and we always respected each other. I am not being delusional. Our friends marveled at that fact. Now I am in my 40s, widowed. I am in a relationship with a man I do truly love, but I am dealing with so much more drama than I am used to. I hate drama! I don't argue; I talk things out. Conflict, however, comes easily to NG. We get into some kind of disagreement at least once a month. We always work it out, but in the thick of it, I feel awful. Why did my husband have to die? I know I can't I go back to my boring life where my biggest squabble was who has to go to the kids' soccer games, but I wish I could. Sometimes I thrive in it, and sometimes I hate this new reality.

I was the same on the old board. I think I dropped off after my first year. It's really great to be back around people who get it. I have a lot of support and trust from my friends and family, but there is comfort in this community. We know the horrors and hardships and wins in this reality we've been handed.

Ahhhh. So many familiar names from YWBB. I just joined this site last night. It's nice to be in the company of you all again. Three years seems like 300 years ago, but it also seems like last week to me. I imagine it will be like that forever, though. Take care.