KrypticKat Posted July 26, 2017 Share Posted July 26, 2017 Friday it'll be one year since my life was turned on its head. It's really hard to believe I haven't spoken to my husband for that long. I swear I just saw him. I've come a long way but I know my complicated grief is far from over. This week is really hard. My sleep is bad again and my emotional control is falling apart. Just trying to breathe. It does get better even it still sucks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Julester3 Posted July 26, 2017 Share Posted July 26, 2017 I too found anxiety riddled me the week leading up to the 1 year anniversary. Hugs to you as the time approaches. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trying Posted July 26, 2017 Share Posted July 26, 2017 I was a mess leading up to the one year anniversary, it's the last of all of the "firsts". Be gentle with yourself and don't expect too much of yourself during this time. Remind yourself that you have survived worse days, the worst! and you will survive this one too. Time is a tricky thing, the hours can go so slowly but the year is over so fast. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MR Posted July 26, 2017 Share Posted July 26, 2017 I am a month away from that day but already thinking of how to make that week busy hell so that less time to think. Really liked your line Trying Time is a tricky thing, the hours can go so slowly but the year is over so fast. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BrokenHeart2 Posted July 26, 2017 Share Posted July 26, 2017 Yes sometimes the anxiety leading up to the day can be worse than the actual day. I remember it being a really tough one for me too. Be gentle with yourself right now KK and don't put any additional pressure on yourself. Hugs to you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KrypticKat Posted August 4, 2017 Author Share Posted August 4, 2017 Thanks everyone. I made it through. My friends took me away rafting for a few days. Being out on the water and active was therapeutic. For the most part it felt like I just ran a really shitty lap. I could actually recall what happened one year ago each day following the anniversary. (This day I went to the hospital, this day I went to the police, this day I went to the funeral home). I felt nauseated everyday. Early on I couldn't have told you what I did five minutes ago but I guess I was keeping track in the back ground. I hope those aweful memories will fade one day and I just keep the happy ones of him. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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