Gem Posted October 23, 2017 Share Posted October 23, 2017 I am now coming up on a year.... And this next year.... I really HOPE i can find away to be happy with being by myself.....If i can just find away, to be happy making me happy....I find myself feeling guilty for crying ..when i got 35 WONDERFUL years. Thank you everyone on here, even though i do not talk much, all the reading has helped sooo much .. Thank You All !! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Julester3 Posted October 23, 2017 Share Posted October 23, 2017 Hugs! It's always a work in progress - searching within ourselves to find what can help us find a sense of happy. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trying Posted October 24, 2017 Share Posted October 24, 2017 The only thing I will say is that the one year mark is not a magic turning point so please don't set yourself up for the let down when grief is still there like I did. Making it through a year of firsts is an accomplishment that deserves some recognition. However, we can not be expected to be "over it" or "back to normal". The longer we have been married, the longer the adjustment to life without our spouse can be. I started dating my DH at 19, we were married 20 years. I had no idea how to be a grown up without him so the adjustment was huge on top of the grief. So no guilt about the tears! I have passed 4 years now and I have a new normal and happiness but it was some work to get here and I am forever changed by my grief. That was supposed to sound more encouraging than it came out. Big Hugs to you as you hit this milestone. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bereft Posted November 10, 2017 Share Posted November 10, 2017 A special FUCK YOU to all the people who keep telling me I should "be over it" 8 months out. Come talk to me when your loved one is RIPPED FROM YOUR LIFE .... That felt good. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
beth_krkswidow Posted November 12, 2017 Share Posted November 12, 2017 Guilty for crying, Gem? Never! I'm at 18 months and I still cry a lot. It's expected. It's necessary. It's sometimes healing. Sometimes cathartic. And sometimes it's just miserable, but always always always NOT a reason for guilt! Sending hugs and a tissue. Ok, A box of tissues 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rifatheroffour Posted November 13, 2017 Share Posted November 13, 2017 Echoing above, never feel guilty for crying or any other emotion you find yourself in. I'm approaching 5 years and most of the time I'm ok. There still come times though where the grief monster sneaks up on you. I had a small episode this morning but it went as fast as it came. I have found the fastest route is straight through, let the tears come and cleanse and move forward from there. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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