Leadfeather Posted August 8, 2018 Share Posted August 8, 2018 Posted this on Facebook, thought I would put it here also in the off chance it might help someone. It has been 20 months since Christine’s death. I believe everyone can understand that finding her laying lifeless in the front yard was the worst moment in my life. I returned to work a week later. In those early months The waves of grief and apathy came heavy and fast. Often they would overwhelm me and I would have to retreat to the Author’s room at work to cry. I would sit on the couch and stare at a print of eleven birds on a wire that hung on the far wall. The birds were grouped, in my mind, into pairs. All except for one little bird, third from the right. He was alone. My eyes fixated on that bird while my mind grappled with the complex emotions of having become half of what I once was. I still miss Christine, and I always will. She helped form me into the man i am and i will always be grateful for her love. But I know she has finished this race and is now with Christ. I am still here. Wounds scar over. New relationships are made. Life continues, and a deeper appreciation for what is can be grown in the soil of loss. Today, wanting a few quiet minutes to reflect before continuing book layout I sat on the couch in the authors lounge and stared at the print of the birds. I realized that that single bird, third from the right, no longer feels alone. I know he has the capacity to rebuild his life and find happiness again. And for that healing I am grateful. Take the time today to appreciate all you have been given. Life is a gift even when we hurt. 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Captains wife Posted August 9, 2018 Share Posted August 9, 2018 Beautifully written....I have worked hard to try and be in a better place - and be thankful for what I do have rather than just be focused on my loss and the turmoil that surrounded it. It takes time...but we can get there. Glad to see you have some peace today. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StillWidowed Posted August 20, 2018 Share Posted August 20, 2018 Wonderful post LF. I too know that healing does happen. No boyfriend, no dating even, but life is good and my plate is full. I hope to recouple one day, if that's God's will for my life. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Needytoo Posted August 27, 2018 Share Posted August 27, 2018 Thank you for posting this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
November Posted September 26, 2018 Share Posted September 26, 2018 Beautiful! For me It's hard to focus on the positive things happening sometimes but I am grateful for a lot of things in my life. Thank you for sharing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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