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Thank you Lewis. Your info was very helpfu[.

I haven't been here in a long while and was looking for someone I met here and lost contact with. Is their a members list? Thanks.

:-\ I need to vent but I can't go into any details yet..but everything I've done up to this time has unraveled. I feel so lost and alone. I haven't been here in a while and had to put this in writing. I'm sorry if I am taking up space with such a non post but it has helped me to put my thoughts out there, even if it's so vague.

I still want to talk to him. I cry still. Ive been seeing someone but it hits me. I want my husband but thats never going to happen. How do I stop wanting him? How do I let myself move on?

I feel the same. Seven years, going on eight, I hate it. I'm alone and feel so lost without my husband. Only us, who have gone through this get it. I understand. I really do.

Thank you all. I don't know. I was doing ok, now I am slipping back to the early days of his death. I miss him, I miss our life, I feel so alone and I don't fit in any longer anywhere. I have isolated myself and the one person that I met, that I had a real connection with, the one I let myself be me with, with no commitment, just to be a friend with, to talk to and feel alive again, left me, without a reason. It hurts. It hurts more then I would have thought. I will never be so open again. Lesson learned

I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I can't move, lost and lonely. I am giving up. I am having trouble getting to this site. Maybe I can figure a way back. Thanks for the advice and knowing I am not alone when I read here. Happy Spring all!!

To be honest, I am afraid to date. I wouldn't know where to start. I have been asked out but I politely decline, then run the other way. I don't know why. Well, I guess I do. I was happily married and and I miss him greatly. I am afraid to take that step. I am OK alone most of the time but it does get lonely, I will admit that. I do miss having someone special to talk to. I wish I had that again at least.

Thank you I am lost, alone. It is hard and unreal to me. I am trying to live but it is nothing like I had before. I never imagined this would be my life.

Hi I know about the tough decision to move. Please take your time and decide what is best for you and your son. It is early for you being a widow. I would suggest to wait a while. Wait. You will know later what is right for you and your son. I was told to wait a year before making a major decision. Think hard about what you want.

It's been seven years, why am I not getting any better? My life is in shambles. I really feel like I have lost my mind. Everything is a struggle. Everything. I am so alone and have no one to talk to. I know I should go get help but I can hardly leave my house. I do the bare minimum to exist. My kids are out of control. I need them to move out on their own but all I get is flack from them. This isn't easy. I use to be happy. I don't think I will ever be happy again. I'm damn near throwing in the towel. My life has gone to crap. From living a nice loving life with my husband to this.

Thank you both for your thoughts and understanding. I know I don't post a lot. I have been having a very hard time since my husband died. Its been a long time but I am still suffering. This is a place I can come and vent and not feel like I am being judged. I thank you and everyone who has always responded to my posts. I apologize that I don't comment more on other peoples posts. I have a hard time commenting when I can't even get my own life under control. But I do deeply appreciate the help I receive here, either through comments or reading others post. Thank you everyone.

I was friends with someone. We were good friends. And then one day, never heard a word. Isn't that great? My trust is no longer. Nothing like adding to a widows plight. But I will forgive, what else is there to do? It hurts. Hurts because I don't know what happened. I cared. Guess it wasn't enough. Life is hard on all of us. I hope that one day we will all have healing.

Thanks everyone. I am sorry we feel this way. I have been sleeping a lot or tossing and turning getting no sleep. My body hurts and my mind keeps racing but I am not getting anywhere. I feel so alone. I have been crying and I have been so out of it. Not taking calls, not leaving the house. I can't seem to snap out of this. It all looks and feels hopeless to me. I came here today to thank you all for understanding. No one in my life does.

And I am very weary. Alone, bitter. afraid and feeling the way I did back in the beginning. I am very afraid I will be like this forever. My children are ungrateful dolts and I have no help from them. I can not get them to move or get out of my house. They seem to be in a tag team against me. I am this close to moving and not leaving a forwarding address. I am venting here so no need to answer. I am so tired, tired of being without my husband. I guess I did something very wrong to be dealing with this, I just don't know what it was. I was a good person who tried to help others. Now I am all alone. Why was he taken from me when I needed him the most. I am almost broken to the point of giving up.