Hugs for you! We are all here for each other, vent when you need to. And I agree fully with the above posters, it takes a while, and it will likely surprise you who steps up and who backs away. At six months now, and while I may have looked strong to others, I know I am only now beginning to remotely get it together. It's OK to be a wreck. Your life was irreparably altered. ((Hugs))!