Karin I am sorry for your loss and I feel the same way you do, like time may be making it worse not better. I am in the same spot and can't say much to comfort as right now I feel exactly the same way. I wait for my wife everyday. I keep thinking this is a cruel joke or a nightmare that I will wake up from. Like you I keep getting told how strong I am and how it will get better, but it does not feel like it. I am also scared like you. I don't know who I am alone, she was so much of me that I am lost. I am not sure if it helps to know I feel the same. I wish I could do something to take the pain away as I know what I am feeling and I wish that no one else had to feel this way. I am sending my love