Sad-confused

Karin I am sorry for your loss and I feel the same way you do, like time may be making it worse not better.  I am in the same spot and can't say much to comfort as right now I feel exactly the same way.  I wait for my wife everyday.  I keep thinking this is a cruel joke or a nightmare that I will wake up from.  Like you I keep getting told how strong I am and how it will get better, but it does not feel like it.  I am also scared like you.  I don't know who I am alone, she was so much of me that I am lost.  I am not sure if it helps to know I feel the same.  I wish I could do something to take the pain away as I know what I am feeling and I wish that no one else had to feel this way.  I am sending my love

Hello everyone,

Thank you so much for your responses.  It is the first time that I feel like someone understands.  All of your stories help me understand that what I am going through is normal and I am not going crazy.  It just feels like it sometimes.  I am a little better today and I am focusing on my daughter and making sure that I am always there for her.  I just need to keep moving forward one day at a time.  I am glad that I am here and I am sorry for all your loses.  I hope we can all get through this together.

My Wife passed on July 20th at 11:55 PM.  Since then I don't feel like me.  At first I could not sleep, now I have a hard time waking up.  I cry uncontrollably.  Then I have a few days where I feel like maybe there is some way that I can deal with this and then I fall apart again. 

We have a wonderful daughter that I am now responsible for, but I have no idea what I am doing.  I just want her back.  I have a successful career that I now don't care about and just want to quit.  There are  so many things that I promised her like a trip to Paris and to ride the orient express that I failed to give her.  How can I do this? What is the point?  When will I stop hurting? Why do I feel so out of control and so confused and why does everyone keep telling me that I am doing fine.  I am no where near fine.

Thank you.