HI,
I'm new here . I lost my husband in May of 2013 after an extended illness -- but he committed suicide after he got out of the hospital. The story is too long to share right now. But, I was so angry and hurt that I got remarried in 2014. Well, that turned out to be a disaster --Talk about learning how to recover from to deep emotional blows at the same time. I think my friends an family are tired of my drama. Personally, I am tired of my drama too! I just can't wait for my life to be "normal" again. I was the wealthy soccer mom that "had it all" and it pretty much all blew up in my face.
I am just sad now. Honestly, I was so angry after Lance died that I didn't cry. I just "moved on". But now, that my ex-husband is out of the house, I miss Lance so very much. It's like all the grief I had from him dying just erupted, and now I am just so sad and I miss him, every day, all the time. The bad part is, that everyone else has moved on ... like 3 years ago... and I am just newly grieving again. Nobody wants to hear about how sad I am because they "got over it" a few years ago. I found this forum in hopes of being able to find an outlet to discuss my feelings without burning my friends and family out. Like I said, they are tired of my "man-drama".
Thank you for giving me an outlet to express myself. It is helpful to know that there is a place for me to talk to someone .
Mary