LeahRoot84

I definitely get that feeling all to well.

Thank you Julester3. I feel like a need a bunch of hugs lately! Especially to hold me together.

I'm still here if you'd ever like to vent or talk 😊 HUGS!

Thank you all so much! Today is another rough day. I really hate this! I'm sorry you all even have to feel what I do. I wouldn't wish this on my own worst enemy. Hugs to all of you! Xx

The memories are really hitting me hard these past 2 days. Me and my husband were really great friends before ever becoming husband and wife! Me and him would travel places and run through the woods together, random 4 am car rides to Dunkin donuts or to just pull over and talk, fires outside in the summer, talking until morning when we could no longer hold our eyes open. Everything he has ever said to me is ringing in my ears. My heart is heavy today. All I wanna do is cry. I miss our memories but most of all, I'm missing him...😥

I couldn't calm myself down last night. I felt like I was going to be sick or passout, I was sweating and my heart racing uncontrollably! It lasted a few minutes when I finally broke and talked to my Mother while I sobbed. When does this EVER get better!? I hate waking up and facing reality all over again. I can't stress it enough, I need him home!!! I know it'll never happen but I'm so over living in a dream just to be close to him. I really wish I could hate him! I'm so mad at him for his decision to take himself out of the equation permanently!! It's not fair!! Thank you all for letting me rant. I'm just angry at this moment.

I know how hard things are. I truly do. If you'd ever like to talk, I'll be here for you. If I can save just one person from self harm do to sadness or whatever a person goes through, it will make my life worth living. Hugs to you! Xx

One day further from the last time I seen my SO, and another day closer to seeing him again. When my time here is done, I hope I never have to let him go again. This has got to be one of the hardest things I have ever gone through. I honestly think I could never be with someone else ever again! Out of fear of losing another and feeling like I have gone against our vows. I miss him, I really do!

Thank you so much Beth! Xx

I'm so sorry you all are feeling a similar pain. I'm truly hoping it gets easier as I have heard from others. Hugs to you all!

Although it's really hard knowing we have all lost our significant others, It brings me comfort to know I'm not alone. Thank you all for the words you have given me. It means a lot. Xx

Here's hoping for a better year with tons of healing for us both! 🍻 Xx

Fuck mental illness! And fuck, fucked up people who know that they pushed a person to their grave, but continue to blame the innocent!!! Fuck it all!!

Yesterday made my 1 year Anniversary to my sweet husband. Another 2 months from now will make a year he's been gone. I just kicked back with a glass of wine and reflected on all the good times we had. I definitely feel jipped, but I'm still grateful for the little bit of time I had, even if not long at all! My wedding day was the happiest day of my life! Aside from my children. I miss him so much!! I hope he knows that.

One day I'm mad, the next I'm sad, the next I find my light again, and I can smile. And BAM!!! It hits me all over again. I feel like I'm just waiting for him to come home, like I'm going to see him pull into our driveway and find out, this was all some bad dream. I would give anything to curl up into his arms and kiss him. I would like one more time to tell him everything he meant to me and the children. It's been a mean world without my handsome sweet husband. I'm just not feeling the day today. I want him here...💔

I have personally never gotten counseling for my loss. But I certainly have thought about it many times! I am glad it has helped you in a lot of ways. 😊 I don't really know what to expect, I'm 9 months in and it feels like it may be getting easier but I'm sure more than anything, I'm just getting use to it. Hugs to all you ladies! Xx This is by far the worst loss I have ever had in my life. 💔

I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. You are not alone with that by any means. I too, feel a lot of the same. Sending hugs your way! Xx

Thank you so much, Maureen 😊 Seems like a bad dream that any of us would have to be on this page. I am training myself, or trying, at blocking a lot out. Sounds unhealthy but it's helping me with my sanity some. Xx

Thank you so much! I could definitely use a hug 😥 I'm so over this feeling. Just wish it would end. I miss my husband so much!!! Hugs to you as well...Xx

First I would like to introduce myself, my name is Leah and I am 32 years old. My husband passed away March 11th of this year. It has been so crazy for me. For starters...I was 6 months pregnant with what would have been our first child together. My husband had bipolar, depression and anxiety. His life growing up was far from easy. Little did he realize, it would be hard on him when he got older as well. I said goodbye to my husband at 4:55 on a Friday. I curled up in his arms one last time, begged God to not take him away but he was needed else where. Since that time, my in laws have not been that nice to me. They have spread rumors about my unborn son and I. Saying that I was nothing more than a whore. Now I seem to be the talk of the town. Because of this I have not been able to grieve properly. They have all turned against me and went as far as hitting me up the day after his death to tell me how much it was my fault. I tried everything I could to stay as calm as possible for the sake of our unborn. Now that he is here, I don't wanna pretend anymore. This whole thing was very unfair to me and my son as well as my other children. We got swept under the rug by a lot of people. I keep praying my anger and hurt will go away. I don't wanna feel like this anymore...