I just joined this page. Hope I am doing this properly. I lost my common-law partner in December 2016 just before Christmas. He died of pneumonia at the age of 42. I took him to the hospital, both thinking he just had a flu, and I watched him die in the emergency room that day while nurses pumped on his chest to re-start his heart. We had been together for 8.5 years. Never married, but planning to start a family this year. I loved him very much. That day was the hardest day of my life and the worst I have ever felt... until I opened his cell phone. It took a few days for the brain fog to clear enough to remember what his password was. On New Years day, alone with a bottle of wine, I looked through his cell. He had many photos of other women and many text messages with other women. He even had a screenshot of a login for a swingers website saved in his photos. I saw it and my heart sank. I had no idea anything was going on. And it was going on for what looks like a very long time. Years even. We were together most of the time, so I don't know when he had the time for all these others. If he had spent even half the time on me that he spent on these websites, messages, etc., I don't know that I could have ever been enough still. I feel betrayed. The best word I can come up with for him is "selfish". You don't buy a house and plan a family while you are doing things with other people. You can't expect to keep up both lives. My grief has been clouded over by anger. Any thoughts that pop in my head of him are about what I found on that phone. I haven't talked to my family, his family, or his friends about it. It isn't going to help anything to taint their memory of him with this. I don't know what to do with it. I have told very few people. I guess I was alone in the relationship long before I ever actually lost him. Just wondering if anyone else out there found out about their loved one being unfaithful after they passed??