I also lost my husband a month ago. I am blessed with an amazing extended family and a few close, great friends who check on me almost every day. I was doing really well until this last week. I was even able to give the eulogy at his funeral mass, if you can believe that. I am finding it very hard to get up and get dressed, especially since it is 26 degrees and snowing right now. But I have prior experience with depression, so luckily, I know what to do. If one of my friends is going out, I go with them, even if it just to the grocery store or to run errands. This forces me to get up and get dressed and speak to another human. I keep protein shakes and bars and eat at least that. I have found that I am more likely to fall into the long "ugly crying" jags in the evening when I'm tired, so I take my meds and go to bed early. I just found the site "Meet up", which lists groups in your area based on common interests like cooking or singing, or practicing a language, anything, really. I am going to try to go to a couple of those meetings, even if my heart isn't in it yet. It is strange how I will be cruising along ok and then missing him acutely strikes my heart. This has happened during mass (church) the last three weekends, where I just can't stop crying. I'll keep doing my best, and thanks to all who have posted, I know it will get better.
