I hardly know how to express myself. The board was a source of reality and comfort for me many years ago and has continued to be that -- while lurking. I have always felt a bit ,odd, because so many of you are the age(s) of my adult children. Yet, after hospice counseling and such, this board has been my light. I thought for many years that I was just crazy -- but, you always brought me back to knowing that I am 'normal'. Each of us has our own timeframes. For me, married for a very, very long; caregiver and sole-support for many years, I lost the love of my life and my own identity. People would tell me that I needed to build a life outside of my husband during his illness. I chose not to do that. Seeing the posts of people from my early days has made my heart feel good. They are still there -- they are still checking, they are still a part of this life. This life has changed for all of us. No matter what age, no matter what geographic location, financial situation -- we have experienced something so profound that there are, simply, no words. I am so glad to see so many 'older' wids connecting with the new site. And, that tells me, as I know for myself, that many of us still need to 'see' that there is reality; that there is still a searching, still a looking for a connection and validation for what we feel. I have 'lost my password' many times over the past years, waited and tried to get back to the board. So -- maybe, this is my new chance!? I watch what so many are doing, worry and pray for so many. Cheer on the newbies, feel comfort from the olders. Wish that more from my 'era' will join. I thank each and every one of you. I have -- long time ago -- chatted with some of you. I think you are all wonderful. Wonderful in the honesty that you give, wonderful in the courage that you display. I know -- I know that prayer is not always mentioned; but, I pray for so many of you. Old Semper Fi is posting -- maybe so will my friend Amy -- from California. Maybe Eric. I have not even words to say how you all have carried though my years. I may be 'older' but, our love was so young and so strong and I connect and value with so much of what you all say. Thanks to those that have reignited this board. Take care, love Chris.