HeidiH

So, it has been nearly 4 years since Rob passed, and I am finding that I still have difficult times. My daughter and I just returned from a short trip to Maine with 2 of my sisters. Our first night back (after being overwhelmed by all that needed to be done at home) I broke down in tears because vacationing is just not the same. I see families on vacation and my heart breaks because I used to have that. I know that I still have a great deal to be thankful for, but somethings still hurt like hell.

A bago sounds fun. I haven't attended one since the winery in 2014, but will try to make it.

I just passed the 1 1/2 year mark and I still start to tear up when I have to tell someone new to me that my husband passed away, especially when talking about the how (motorcross accident). Luckily yesterday, I held it in and the tears did not flow, especially since it was at the beginning of a busy school day. After getting through the telling, the other teacher told me that since her husband is not home each day until about 8pm, our lives are kind of the same. What?? I understand that we both struggle with the after school activities and transportation of kids here, there, and everywhere, but at least her husband does come home at some point. So, basically after I nearly cried talking about it to someone new, I switched gears to pissed off. I guess this is just another example of the emotional roller coaster that we all ride. Thanks for letting me vent here.