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Good for you for not taking crap and going after what you want!!

I agree. Widowhood has made me less willing to put up with poor treatment from others.  Good luck with your new position!!

You've come so far and the end is in sight - sending you strength, prayers and positive vibes that you stay strong on Monday and soon this will all be finished and behind you - ready to start your new life with your son!!!

Mizpah - your post is so true for me as well.  YWBB was the most helpful form of support I received in those early days and I truly do not know what I would have done without it.  I was on there all hours of the day and night because there was always somebody who understood, who totally got what I was feeling.  I too kept a typed journal from those first few years and every now and again I still add to it when I think of something.  I hope that those who are new to this journey get the same comfort from this site that YWBB gave us.  I don't post much any more but I still read daily - I am going to try to participate more in helping others here instead of thinking what I have to say is not important.  Thanks for making me realize that!

I totally get this - we just got back from a beach vacation and we felt the same way.  It is still so strange...

I hope you and your kids are able to enjoy and make new memories.

Glad you posted as I have wondered how you are doing. I can imagine this brings up all sorts of feelings but you are on the path to happier and peaceful days.  (((Hugs)))

Congratulations!!

3 months after my husband died, our pool collapsed.  It really wasn't all that old but it gave way and went rolling down the hillside into a neighbor's yard and flooded their basement.  The kids and I debated on whether or not to replace it and decided against it.  Although we miss it on really hot days, we now have a nice fire pit built where the pool once stood (and much less work)!

Good luck - have a safe trip and looking forward to hearing about your new life!  (((HUGS)))

Ditto that^^^^

I am so glad to hear your son will be leaving soon and I hope you get to leave soon as well.

Stay strong and stay safe.  Hugs and prayers to you. 

As the others have said, I am so sorry you have reason to be here.  You will find support here that you may not find out side in the real world.  Being here helped me so much in those early days and I am sure you will find the same comfort here.  Big hugs and prayers to you and your children. 

Congratulations!!

That's so sweet of them to want to do something to remember the day.  I personally would want to do something with just the kids and not invite other people but that's me. Would you feel comfortable having many people around or would that be too difficult?  Either way I am sure your kids will understand. 

So proud of you!  Keep moving forward and do not look back.  You and your son deserve every happiness. (((HUGS)))

Lots of support and prayers coming to you and to your son.

I know how difficult it is but you are making the right decision.  Stay safe. 

Thank you for sharing this article.  So many points hit close to home for me as well.

I remember her and her story!  I hope she got what she was hoping for 

So true.  Some days it just hits hard out of nowhere...today's been one of those days.

I do this all the time.  Even with things going on in the world - I have to stop and think to myself "did he know about that?" 

I do that with changes I've made to the house also - was that pre-death or after-death?  I guess we all do that from time to time.

I agree.  I thought it would get "less awkward" but so far that hasn't happened for me.  And it's in all areas of my life as you named.

I don't even try explaining it to people who don't get it. It is what it is and I just keep hoping for better days ahead.....for all of us!

So sorry you are going thru this.  Lots of prayers being sent. 

I can relate to so much of what you wrote.  I still have anger but it has diminished somewhat over the years.  You are definitely not alone in feeling the way you do.

Congratulations on your baby girl!! 

So sorry for your loss. He sounds like a wonderful man.

Very happy for you!!!