hi i have had a terrible after noon, iv had a busy day getting the xmass decks down, my son helped, and i started pulling other boxs down just making space and i came across last year cards and the one jo wrote on mine last year ,my wonderfull husband, you mean the world to me ,cant wait to spendanother christmass together, love you everything. well i just compleatly broke down, i was ok pottering and iv cried buckets, feels like iv gone back a couple of weeks, i try and keep busy, but the pain waites for me, and when i have a moment or two bang, its still early 6 weeks since jo passed away, ,this is so hard