bonay

Boy I really need this tonight for I am having a tough time going to sleep which is common for me. So here it goes. Her Name is Renee, and through out our whole relationship we always called each other names of famous people for instance I would be Romeo and she would be Juliet, Popeye and Olive Oil, and At bed time she was Gracie and I was George (George Burns and Gracie Allen) .. But the name we went by the most was Bonay Bo for the first two letters of my last name and the Nay was short for Renee . And just like the nickname we were always together, but I am missing hearing her singing and I can't sleep because of it.

Fuck the holidays and all he advertisements of couples in love . Fuck that I can't see the joy in my wife's eyes when I placed the gifts under the tree when she told me that we weren't going to do gifts so that we could save. And then she comes out with a gift that was even bigger. Fuck all the slow music that brings back the loneliness and memories of smelling your perfume. And one final fuck you to all of those people that don't know how to treat your spouses properly for I would give everything in this world for 2 seconds just to see her smile and tell her that I love her. (Thank you I have been holding this in for I hate this time of the years)

Hello All, I have finally decided to stop being the wallflower and create an account and Participate. May name is Scott and I lost my love of my life a year and a half ago. My wife's name was Renee and she was my everything, for she was my support, my filter, and the one person that could tell me everything was going to be ok and I believed her. I lost her a week before our 17th Wedding Anniversary and my 40th birthday. I was one of the lucky few that actually got married on my birthday. We were talking about what we were going to do for our anniversary and then she had a brain aneurysm. On that day my world came to a close and every day since I have to talk myself into getting out of bed for I know she wouldn't want me to mope. She had the worlds largest heart and she was the most beautiful woman I ever laid eyes on and I am coming to this group because I need to hear from someone that it is going to get better and this pain that I feel in my heart is going to ease up. Every night I come home from work just hoping that I have been in this nightmare and I never wake up. I do apologize for the rambling words and the poor grammar . Thank you for having me.