skytrancegirl

most of the weekend kept busy. wasn't just vday, it was also 1 month that he is gone. Went out to the flea market in the morning with my father in law, then for lunch with my mom. I did scratch off some lottery tickets for my sweetheart, he loved those things.That all ended at about 3pm, i laid down and passed out and didnt wake up until it was time for work today.

my 1st month of anniversary of my husbands death happens to fall on valentines day. talk about a double whammy! Justin never cared for V day but he knew how much it meant to me and loved to see me laugh and smile. So he always made sure to share that day with me and make it special. I put on the necklace that he got me last year for v-day. All of my friends and family are very aware of this weekend, and I have tons of plans, But I am going to make sure to set aside some quite time in the morning. Justin loved lottery tickets so i am going to buy a few of the cupids cash ones and scratch them off! For how well I'll handle the day that will remain to be seen.

thank you, i need all the hugs i can get!

i woke up this morning and freaked out he wasn't there. i cried and cried. i have to make the funeral arrangements today. i have no idea how im going to hold up.

hi im new here and was referred by a friend who went thru something similar. i came home from work last night and found him dead it was an accidental overdose. i dont know what to feel. i am numb,lost and alone. i have great friends and family support but its not really helping. i want my husband back. we went to the funeral home today and go back tomorrow to make final plans. the reality is sinking in and i'm scared. i feel dead inside. he was not only my husband but my best friend, soulmate and partner in crime. we spent all our time together and did everything together, i honestly have no clue how im going to deal with this.i know i am strong and will get through it. i dont know how but i will. i know its going to be a pure long road through hell. can anyone please offer some advice?