AubreeAnn

I can relate 100% to everything you said. I'm just starting to go back to work. My main anxiety mainly came from driving down the road my love was killed on. I go a different route now. It's hard also because it's going back to a routine without a very important piece. That's what scares me the most, going back to the things I did before I lost him. To me, going back to work makes it seem as if "Oh that loss was a speed bump, now go on, continue what you were doing". Like a slap in the face. Work can be hard and we can relate. I hope you find it more bearable to make it through your day. Hugs.

Since my loved passed, I've been desperate for a sign. (Being as open as I can with this) What are some things you've experienced that let you know that they are still with you?

So thankful for this thread. I was unmarried and no children. Knew my love for 3 years and was with him for 1 1/2 years. I hate saying that I was simply the "girlfriend" because it was so much more than that. We were forever but it was cut short. We didn't have that chance to move forward together. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in that aspect. I've been self conscious because we weren't married and most people here were. Thank you for accepting us all the same. So blessed for you all

Though my love and I weren't moved in with one another just yet, I spent my Thursday's-Sunday's with him 24/7. Now I feel so lost without that. During the week I have work to distract my day but when I don't have him for my leisure time, I don't know what to do. We would have date night and just spend quality time together. What did others do to cope with that new empty time? I don't know how to deal with that void of time.

It comes in waves. I'm at about 6 weeks and a few days ago, I had two days that were about the same as the ones I felt in the very beginning, it's been awful and a new pain and I think the shock started to wear off a little. I was hit with a new wave and those waves will come and go, some stronger than others. You feel like you'll be having a decent day and then the next day, you feel like it's back to the beginning. It's so unimaginable and we know your pain. Hugs to you and take care of yourself.

My love and I became one person. Now that he's gone, I'm the only half left. I don't feel like I even know who I am, what I like or what I'm passionate about. I feel like, not only am I mourning the loss of him, our future, the kids we didn't have, and everything with the territory, I have to figure out where to begin again. What do I like to do? What will I do with my evenings and weekends now? Where do I even begin? I'm so lost with this new life and struggling with desperately trying to keep the old life (the life with him). What do I do?

I know he would want me to but I don't want a life without him, I don't want to move forward without him. This pain is too much to handle. I want this gone I want to be with him again. I need him.

Hey All, this is my first post here and lost my loved one on April 21st. I am filled with regret. Did I love him enough, did he know that I loved him as much as I do, did I make him laugh enough, hug him enough, kiss him enough. Did I let him know everything that he needed to know? I would like to think that I did but I doubt myself. Was I enough for him?