I'll have to ask your dad.

[SoVerySad]

This morning my daughter and I were driving in an unfamiliar area. I was surprised to see a sign for a small town that I didn't think was anywhere near where we were. I matter-of-factly said, "I'll have to ask your dad." It is unthinkable to me that after almost 3.5 years he has been gone, I would have an automatic response like that. I thought for sure every inch of my body would remember he's no longer here given that every inch of it has deeply grieved since his death. The sadness of my reality has filled me, yet for one brief moment this morning, he still existed in my mind.

[First Widow]

I've done the very same thing lately and it is shocking.