I feel like it's getting worse

[still_lost]

My husband died seven years ago. Why do I seem to feel worse now than I did years ago? I go to work every day, take care of my child, but I feel like I am physically and emotionally worse off than I was in prior years. I don't want to cook as much, socialize, be around people, etc...I wasn't like this years ago. I guess it's really taking a toll on me now. I have my child to live for, but he will grow up and leave one day, then what next??

[SemperFidelis]

Yeah....  :-\

[sikeuritgadeun]

I Know,  seven years for me too and I feel the same. 

[RemysWife]

Five years here... I don't necessarily feel like it is worse so much as there is always a new way that it hurts. Memories find new ways to haunt me. Loneliness feels a bit sharper. When I think I have gotten past the hard stuff there is something else that happens.

 

I never imagined that five years later, I would still look at my life and have no idea how I ended up here. I'm not necessarily unhappy, but I'm not happy either.

[ladybug]

I understand the feeling of not being unhappy, but not happy either.......hope that makes sense.....thanks for sharing.

[Guest wecouldbeheros]

I think it might be the seven year thing.