imissdow Posted November 24, 2017 Share Posted November 24, 2017 Today is/Was thanksgiving. All 3 of my girls were home. The 2 older ones are doing well in college. The youngest made honor roll last semester. Life is good, I have lots to be thankful for. Earlier this week I turned 50. I started a new job last week and so far I really like it. I've had lots of changes in my life in the last couple of years and I'm expecting a few more as my oldest heads off to a residential school to finish her college experience. Life is really good. I have some really good friends. I have a little bit of a social life. I'm able to enjoy some time off and can afford some simple trips. I live within my means , and have become pretty comfortable alone. Yet, with all the good stuff in my life I still feel like I'm missing something. I can't say it's a guy, I'm tired of dating and for the most part in ok with being alone. I vollenteer plenty, so it's not really a purpose, I have that. I have fun with some regularity. I feel like my life has lost passion. I used to have so much stuff that I felt so strongly about. Now I'm just meh about just about just about everything. There is very little that gets me really excited. I enjoy my time with my kids but even that feels forced a lot of the time. I get time with my best friends and I'm glad to see them but it feels really muted, if that make sense. So how do you find your passion again. I wonder if I don't allow myself to feel because I don't want to be hurt. Yet on the other hand I really want my old self back, I liked the firey, outspoken , don't take no crap girl I was. I miss the old me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
twin_mom Posted November 24, 2017 Share Posted November 24, 2017 I miss me too. I'm not sure if I'm protecting myself from more hurt, if I feel like life isn't worth the effort because it can all just disappear, if I don't have the emotional energy to invest... or what it is. Sorry, no help here, just commiseration. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ladybug Posted November 26, 2017 Share Posted November 26, 2017 I understand what you are saying. I have a numb feeling about life now a days. I have that feeling inside but I try and hide it from the world. No one in my office would ever guess that I have a numb feeling about life. I understand your feeling all too well. Thanks for sharing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
donswife Posted November 26, 2017 Share Posted November 26, 2017 " I miss the old me " yes , says it all Sorry we can all relate to this feeling but thanks for the post Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Toosoon2.0 Posted November 26, 2017 Share Posted November 26, 2017 imissdow - so happy to hear your little women are thriving! They're pretty great, you know, as are you. I stopped grieving the old me a while ago. The new me is someone I don't quite yet know or understand. I've just accepted that this is going to be some kind of work in progress for the foreseeable future. One thing I know for certain, whatever "carefreeness" I once had, I no longer have. I've become a much more serious person. I guess brain cancer will do that to a person. Anyway, just wanted to tell you I understand. Lots of love to you and the girls. xoxox Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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