Moving on

[gracelet]

I wonder if she'd be happy for me, that I love and am loved. That I'm thriving and living. That my second wife wins every time, hands down. That I'm now carrying the child we wanted, but it isn't hers.

 

I still can't help but think that her final act of suicide was one done to control me - to try to govern and define my life, to claim me as bound to her forever, as opposed to one taken to end her pain. Thinking back, I really do wonder how I fell in love with her and why, despite everything, I still do love her and miss her smell. It's been nine years.

[hachi]

I do believe that if it is at all possible that she would be happy for you. Her pain is over and she would find joy in your happiness.