Bill1972

I feel for you mekender, keep in mind that a lot of people are involved, and some even believe they are impacted to the same degree as you are. Hopefully everyone can stay positive with what they think and say.

Another one that gets my tears going.

Remembering her on a holiday in 2012, one year before her cancer diagnosis.

It broke me too. hugs.

Good Morning Mekender, It has been two months for me. Although everyone's journey is unique, I look back and realize that there is an initial period of acute emotional shock. During this period you need to be careful what decisions you make, what you say and what you do. You may look back at this period in the future and not even remember some or most of it. Just be careful and recognise that your mind needs time to process what has happened.

Today marks two months. Time is still moving very slowly. Feels like it happened years ago. I am thankful for this site bringing me others experiences. I have gotten some comfort knowing that I am not alone. I have also joined a local group of “young widows and widowers” from meetup.com and even if sometimes I really don’t feel like going, I do go and end up benefiting from being physically around others that get it (even if I end up crying sometimes). My biggest benefits are from interacting with other widows/ers because I can see there is life after I get through some of this grief. I am being encouraged to go to grief counselling, and may end up taking that route.

I'm going through the same random 'hits', resigned to the fact that I will never be over this completely, but I will be wiser and stronger, once my mind is done processing this.

My wife passed away on August 30, 2016. I am caught off guard that I wasn't able to adequately prepare (even though I though I was prepared) given that we knew the inevitable end to our journey. I have never felt so lonely, and time has never moved so slowly. I'm also not prepared for the inadequacy of other peoples understanding. I have never felt so misunderstood. I do have a couple of role models. One is my fathers friend who lost his wife about 30 years ago. He has since remarried and has been successful in family life and professionally. I talked to him when I went 'home' for thanksgiving and was stunned to see tears rolling down his face. I knew I would always love my wife, but I didn't expect to always cry for her.