Maverick86

I absolutely know what you mean. When my SO died it had already been over three weeks since I had seen him; he was over a thousand miles away for work. I used to cry because I missed him so much but I had no idea. That is what I miss the most- just waking up next to him and snuggling. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I roll over to his side of the bed and close my eyes and picture him there with me. I miss his warmth next to me and his smell. It's so surreal that I will NEVER feel that again. I touched him at the funeral home but obviously that was not nearly the same. I'm sorry you are going through this as well. It is hell.

I am so glad I finally found someone I can relate to. My boyfriend also passed away of a heart attack very unexpectedly. He was 30. We were supposed to grow old together and now he is gone. I just miss him so much. I can relate to everything you said. I'm going back to work this Monday and it will be a little less than three weeks since he passed. I'm sorry you are experiencing this as well, I wouldn't wish this on anybody. It is an unimaginable pain I never thought I would have to go through. Feel free to message me anytime if you need someone to talk to.

I feel you exactly here. My SO was so not deserving of this. Why couldn't it have been me? He was such a genuinely great guy and I feel like compared to him I don't deserve to still be here. But also selfishly then I wouldn't have to be experiencing this awful nightmare. I laid in bed all day today and my biggest accomplishment was taking out the trash. It felt like I used 100% of my energy doing just that. I never imagined I could feel so many intense emotions at once, constantly, for so long. And it feels like it's never going to end.

I think the hardest part for me is that I was so used to not even acknowledging other guys because I was so happy in my relationship and I was so happy that I had found someone I truly loved and just the thought of having him at home made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Now it's just kind of a stab in the heart because at first I think "I have a boyfriend and he is the one" but then it turns into the sad realization that I don't. He's gone. It sucks.

My boyfriend's birthday is new year's day and mine is new year's eve. Another reason I really thought we were meant to be together. I'm really not looking forward to that weekend this year. I was so excited to celebrate it with him. My birthday/ new year's will never be the same. I'm sorry to hear of your bad experience but I'm glad you have good friends around you to get you through it.

I'm having a really hard time today. I went and picked up my urn. It's just not fair. We were supposed to be picking out rings not urns. I honestly just don't know how I am ever going to get past this. I just really really miss him. He was the best guy I have ever known. I had never really felt love like that until I met him. It's just really hard to understand why this had to happen to us and I probably never will.

Hi everyone. I never thought in a million years that I would be a part of this community. I am 24 and two weeks ago today my boyfriend, age 30, passed away very unexpectedly. He had a heart attack while working over a thousand miles away from home. He was alone in his hotel room for hours before anyone found him. I had already not seen him for three weeks when he passed. I can't believe that this is my life now. We were so excited about our lives together and our future. We had just requested time off for a vacation this winter, and after he passed his friends told me he had been planning to propose on this trip. It just seems so unfair that everything was taken from us. I miss him so much and I feel like my whole world has been turned upside down. I would give anything to just talk to him one more time. He was my world, my rock, my best friend. I was finally happy and found someone who treated me so great and I felt like my life was finally coming together. I have gone from the happiest I have ever been in my life to the lowest point. It sucks.