I'm Lynn. I lost my dear David six year ago on 25 April, 2011. He died of leukemia, 24 hours after his diagnosis. He was 47 and it was shock. He was my rock, my co-parent of my then 12 year old son and the mentor and advisor to my daughter, just entering college. He was such a good dad; though he wasn't their biological father, he so wanted to be a father and a husband. We miss him every day.
YWBB helped me through those first difficult years. Now, looking at the anniversary coming up, I'm feeling the loss yet again. It's been a hard year for me, with breast cancer and several surgeries and having to tell people I'm fine, no, really! Because you're not supposed to deal with stuff like this alone. But really, you have to, because people say things but don't really want to help.
There are things I want to do: find a better job, with less stress. Find more friends and a happier life. Figure out how to happy, productive and engaged in creative work. And many days, I'm not sure if that's possible to find. But I will keep looking. Despair is the enemy and the deceiver. Things do change; it's up to me to make sure I'm ready for the next thing.
Good to find this place again. Hope I can be helpful. ~Lynn