Butch

my Wife Pauline died jan.26.2015 , from a rare form of Lung Cancer Synovial Sarcoma , she was diagnosed with stage 4 back in February 28 2014 , by the time it was discovered it had spread to her lymph nodes, she was just 41 years old when she passed, I was her primary caregiver/extreme caregiver , we live 30 miles from the nearest hospital, she passed away in the Palliative Care unit of the Hospital after being admitted only 3 days earlier , she was admitted because her lungs were filling with fluid and collapsing , they put in a drain and kept her heavily medicated so she felt no pain, she had a DNR on her medical file , there was very little they could do for her except keep her from suffering, my wife and I spent the last 3 days talking about our lives together, our son, and what Heaven must be like, nothing was left unsaid between us , I miss her so much , the loss of her is still very hard on me and our son , he is 13,

I lost my wife just 3 months ago, and her family has all but abandoned my son and I, they are angry at me for her death, she died of a rare form of lung cancer ( she never smoked) , yet this seems to be my fault somehow, her family is looking for an excuse to try and take my 13 year old son from me, it's a messy situation to be in, and a very shitty one at that, I am still grieving, holding down a job, raising a 13 year old, making the house payments etc. trying to do it all on my own and keep my sanity while grieving, I sincerely wish her family would just fade away and never bother us, this situation has caused me to become bitter, not something I am used to being, and I do not like this feeling at all.