danidee

Can I join in? I haven't been to the forum in awhile. I gave myself a pass on the food over the holidays, and I'm regretting it now. I'm with you mmg19 with portion control! Got in 5 x 3 back squats + heavy farmers carries. Plus 20-15-10-5-10-15-20 wall balls, push ups, sits. Phew.

My fiance died after an 18 month run with lung cancer. The last few months go hard and I worked from home 90% of the time, so people in my office were aware of what was going on. At the visiting hours we held three days after he died, a woman I worked with came through the line. She looked at me and said, "I think part of you was ready for this." It's been 9 weeks since he died, and I cannot see this woman without my blood boiling. I want to turn her around and point to his ashes surrounded by pictures and ask if she wanted to rethink that. Also at the visiting hours, two young girls he had worked with came up to me giggling telling me they were here to see my ring. He had proposed on July 3. We were going to be married September 19. He died August 11. So not the time. And one more from the visiting hours. A man he worked with was talking to his sister and I. He asked how his relationship with his son was before he died. (Life with his son wasn't the best) He asked about our wedding. And he finished up with, "how was it at the end? Pretty bad?" His sister and I were too stunned to even respond, but I wished we had said.. well, he died, so...

Stage IV lung cancer. He got the official diagnosis on Christmas Eve 2013. He died 18 months later... 9 weeks ago today. He was only 39.