b1inker

I'm a year out of a 1.5yr relationship that ended pretty suddenly. I thought she had real a possibility to be the next one. No dice, even though she was extremely adult about it and oddly enough was the best breakup I ever had it still hurt so much. I went to a dark place thinking about why I have to go through all this shit again. I had a woman who was my everything and realized this is just how it's going to be for the rest of my life. It will always go back to her. I've closed all the dating apps and politely declined blind dates setup by friends wives. I have no kids and figure if a woman really wants to date me she can make the effort to ask me out because I just don't have the drive to chase after a partner anymore. It scares me but I'd rather play the skin flute for the rest of my life than go back to that dark place because I might not make it out of there again.

I know how you feel, the friends just kind of cough and shift uncomfortably, no one knows how to talk about it. Especially when you are in your late 20's/early 30's. You isolate yourself and people think they should give you time but you are just scared, lonely, and sad. I would hope someone would invite me to things but I was too scared to get out there and connect with friends again so we'd drift apart.

Hello there, I used to lurk the YWBB but ended up taking a leave before hitting the reddit board and now I figured I'd get back into this as it is so nice to read these things since it helps me feel like I'm not alone. I lost my wife to a brain tumor (speech center) on 1/12/13. We were married for 2yrs 7months, she fought cancer for 2yrs 6months and 3weeks. I was the primary caregiver and it nearly broke me to watch her die a little more every day. That's pretty much it.