Smiling at photos

[momtokam]

I am aproaching 3 years in September.

 

I have had a very hard time looking at photos of him, him with the kids, or the two of us. Tears and sadness would flow all the time.

 

Last week I was looking at photos and I saw beyond the images to what was happening those days that they were taken. I was now smiling and not crying.

 

Along similar lines, a friend asked to borrow his floor nailer. I found it and also found a second one. My husband was very fond of buying multiples of something,  if they were on sale, just in case. I smiled and laughed when I found them.

 

I guess this must be a step forward in the healing process for me. Not something I was consciously thinking about but it just kind of happened.

 

There are still hard days, especially with trying to juggle everything with 3 kids and the loneliness but maybe, in some way, it's his way of telling me everything will be alright.

 

 

[Lisa]

Im glad your memories are able to give you joy sometimes. It is a wonderful gift .it is that way the majority of the time for me now

[ieh21]

Isn't it a wonderful feeling to get to that point? Instead of seeing pictures and thinking "here is what I lost", to be able to say "remember that time when".

[Gabzmom]

Your post in its entirety made me smile.  Especially, the part where he bought multiples of things.  I have three staple guns and have given a Leatherman to several friends - my DH had more than nine.  I kept one and gave another to my daughter. 

 

Glad you are remembering the good times.  Blessings to you...

[momtokam]

Gabzmom,  it really is crazy with the mutiples. It used to bug me but now it makes me smile.

 

Thanks everyone.