Guest running with scissors Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I have no strong likes of anything. I am still lost after all these years. I cry a lot. No one knows how empty I feel. I get up, I stumble through the day, I try to sleep and it just goes on and on, week after week with no change. I am completely empty. I am pathetic.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Callobg Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Running, You must have been reading my thoughts. I'm in the same place. Nothing will ever be the same for us. You stay wid strong. Know that we're stumbling through hell with you. V/r Boris Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Quixote Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 Yeah. Since youre posting in Beyond Active, I'm guessing you're where I am, too. People think you've got on with life, but you still have this hole in your heart. You try to go out and live, but everything, even the stuff that should be awesome, is somehow dulled like a washed out photo. The one you love is gone and the world will always be a lesser place. I don't have an answer. I suspect there isn't one. But you're not the only one, if that helps. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
twistedmensa Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I understand about no strong likes. I used to love riding my motorcycle, used to love scuba diving, used to love hiking and camping. I still do these things occasionally, though not like I used to, but the passion for them is gone. My passion for life is gone. I think it's because in order to survive the grief, I have had to numb my feelings. Apparently, I don't have the ability to numb one emotion, but have numbed them all. I would really like to regain the passion for life that I once enjoyed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Max2507 Posted November 4, 2015 Share Posted November 4, 2015 I feel like this a lot too. I am trying new things, trying to find the new me. Maybe we are just worn out from the grief and have to recover from that in the "beyond active grieving" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JeanGenie Posted November 5, 2015 Share Posted November 5, 2015 Yes I feel the same way. I used to like life. I was "happy". Now I have some happy times, but they are small moments in time. I no longer can say "life is good" or that in general "I'm happy". Will I ever be truly happy again? I would like to think so (since it's rather depressing otherwise). I guess I just need to be patient... Max, your reference to just being worn out from the grief sums it up pretty well! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
widowhoodsucks Posted November 16, 2015 Share Posted November 16, 2015 yep empty shell Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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