JacklessSally Posted March 26, 2015 Share Posted March 26, 2015 'A Widow's Song' - Despite what you might think, we are not stuck living in the past because we hang out with other widows. - We are not in denial that we lost our spouses and yet, have a life to live for today. - We know we aren't the same person as before anymore. - We probably do need counseling- among a lot of other things. - We occasionally make bad judgements. That's how we learn. - We know we don't fit 'normal' for you (or us) in the world. - We know you want us to go back to the person we used to be. We wish that too but it's not happening. - Maybe we are crazy, if crazy means nothing makes sense anymore. Feeling crazy sends me on an emotional roller coaster which includes both laughing and crying in one sentence. - We are going to talk about them, have their picture around. Forever. 2 years is not a long time in our world. - We feel like you over step your boundaries with us. We yearn for your empathy. - We can't fix this right now for you or for us. We are doing our best to just breathe, eat, sleep, evolve, think and pay our bills. - We are in pain. Deep pain that can't always be seen on the outside. But believe me, it's in here and it hurts. So much so that I want to vomit over it sometimes. - We aren't going to cover it up when it rises up. It's not healthy. - We do our best to help you understand when it makes you feel uncomfortable. But being uncomfortable is only one part of this process. - We hope that you never feel this way. - We doubly hope this never happens to you. - But if it ever does, know this one thing- I won't treat you like this because then, and only then, will we both understand all this without any words spoken. Please have the utmost patience as I create a new song for the orchestra of my life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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