How did you know?

[Guest look2thesky]

When you realize you can Love again,

You Know.

[Stevesbabyness]

I'm not sure if I'll ever know. I still feel massive guilt (think it's, as was said above, guilt from 'What would everyone say?' rather than what I think I know, though).

 

I met new guy early on (about eight months out) and within three months he moved in. I think most everyone around me figured it to be a loneliness thing -- which perhaps it may have been. It's changed, and in line with the 'apples to oranges', it feels a very different connection than I had with LH who was absolutely my soul mate. The more I get to know new guy, the more I understand him, and thus, the more I love him and want to be with him.

 

I believe LH would want me to find love. I believe he knows how very much I had lost myself through the dark times (both whilst he was alive with his drinking and emotional abuse and then after his death).

 

As I keep saying to myself, I'm not gone. We've only one go 'round on this big blue marble, and I must find some semblance of happiness for as long as I'm here...