Oh, Kim...I do understand, too, and my heart so hurts for you.
I met my husband in 2009, we married in 2011 and in 2013 I lost him to a tragic accident. When the doctors told us the situation in the hospital, I emitted what I've only been able to term "some animalistic noise that I didn't realise humans could make". He was 34, I was 40.
It's hard, and it's awful. And at two months, you are still in those awful early days of disbelief and incredible sadness. As perfectly stated above, right now the focus is on survival and "bearing the unbearable". Remember to breathe, and come here often; we all understand.
Big hugs to you, hon. It never heals, but it hurts less through time.