MissingSquish Posted May 26, 2015 Share Posted May 26, 2015 Is one of him nodding out. I had shown him the video during a rare time that he was sober, and he was really upset at me for even taking it. We didn't have a wedding videographer. I didn't think to take videos of him during our happier times (though I didn't have a video camera on my phone until after we were married). We were only married for a little longer than 6 months when he died, and his addiction spiraled out of control in those few short months. There weren't a whole lot of happy times while we were married. I watched the video for the first time in a long time tonight. It wasn't seeing him on film nodding out that made me sad. It was our dog, pru, in the background putting her head on the side of the couch that got me. It is something that she still does, especially when I'm upset. She's had a really rough life in a lot of ways, and I feel guilty that I have been leaning on her so much. She's seen so much trauma and sorrow in her life. It is truly horrifying how much addiction impacts everyone around the addict. I am trying to live life now by taking videos of pru being cute and pictures of the happy times that I have had since he's been gone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
anniegirl Posted May 26, 2015 Share Posted May 26, 2015 Addiction is indeed very hard on people around the afflicted. It takes a long time to put it behind you. My father was an alcoholic. My brother has struggled on and off since he was a teenager with drugs and alcohol (though he is currently in recovery mode and doing well). I spent a good bit of my young adulthood coming to terms with the impact both of them made on my young self. It's good that you can focus on those things that make you happy. It's not easy to do after trauma and loss but it's good that you are. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Carey Posted May 26, 2015 Share Posted May 26, 2015 I have the same situation. The only video I have of Chad, he is dancing and singing to a stupid Target commercial, and he was six sheets to the wind. It was funny and cute, but I HATE that the ONLY moving talking image I have of him , he's shitfaced :-( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissingSquish Posted May 27, 2015 Author Share Posted May 27, 2015 Hugs to you guys. I'm sorry you had to deal with addiction as well. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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