Soryashusband

About a month after my wife died I ran into a woman who I used to work with at the grocery store. When I told her what happened, she said "Well she had been sick for awhile anyways." And she ended the conversation by saying "I hope the rest of your summer goes better." People can suck sometimes.

I shoveled for the first time this winter. I kept thinking how the last time I shoveled my wife was still alive and I had no idea what a nightmare my life would become. It's not that I'm lonely, it's that the one person on earth who I want to be with has been taken away.

Thank you both for your hopeful messages. It's thoughts like those that help me keep going. Thank you.

I go to bed every night hoping I won't wake up and get up to very morning disappointed to still be alive.

On one hand I'm glad to have other people who understand what I'm going through. On the other, I wish no one else has to be going through this as well.

Thanks for the idea. I'm definitely getting one. I used to hug my wife so hard she would say ' You smash me like the potatoes.' She was Cambodian and had the most wonderful expressions. Thanks again.

My wife died in June and I was left a widow at age 50. I compared the crying sounds I made to an injured animal. The only thing I can suggest is to just take it day by day and sometimes hour by hour. Don't think too far ahead. This is the hardest thing a person can go through. You are not alone, you have all of us here.We will get through this.

When I saw the thread title, I thought "That's exactly how I feel." Like there's nothing left to put together.

My 6 month mark for losing my wife is next week.This is the toughest thing I have ever dealt with. At the beginning I said I would give this 18 months and if things weren't better I would end it. But I had to give it an honest attempt. Sometimes just knowing I had the power to end it was the only thing that picked me up off the floor. I wish I could look you in the eye and tell you that we will get through this. It will get better.