IronGirl

I can completely relate to the thoughts . I am only just under a month in and all I can think about is sex! I feel terrible about it but I also think its my coping mechanism as if I think about nice and pleasurable things I don't have to deal with the sad bits. I also think that the past 9 months haven't been active due to my DH have chemo and side affects, so maybe part of it is the itch that needs to be scratched!!

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Hi everyone I lost my husband 4th Jan 2017 to rectal cancer (age 42). He was only diagnosed in May 2016 and immediately started chemo whilst we were living in the USA. once he finished his 12th round we flew home to Uk to be with friends and family as we were advised he may only have at best 2-3 years. Well almost as soon as we arrived home and settled & I started a new job he became unwell. He was hospitalised for 9 days and then finally sent home on 16th Dec and told to put his affairs in order. We even had to bring xmas forward just in case. We have 2 children (10 yrs & 8 yrs). He managed to pull through xmas & new year and died shortly after in our local hospice on the Wednesday. Due to the newness of my job I was back at work the following Monday on reduced hours. That's the thing with young kids you don't want their life to be any more affected that it already is so it forces you to be strong and push on! Anyway just wanted to say hi. Katie (age 38)

I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Listening to your story did actually resonate with me and my coping mechanisms too. I lost my husband to cancer on 4th Jan 2017 after 8 months from diagnosis. I have two young kids and I am finding inner strength from having to deal with them. Its very hard to completely indulge in my grief when work still has to happen and kids have their needs that I need to meet.