stormywx

I can absolutely relate to this. Friends disappeared, no support at all. Weak. That's a good word. I feel totally worthless now. Like a shell of who I was. He was my world, my reason for living and the reason for my happiness. I'm lost and every day it starts over...I focus on my belief that I will see him again, otherwise I would have gone insane by now

Her brother also died 2 days ago from cancer :'(

Thanks for posting this. I can relate to alot of it too..my husbands name was Paul, he died of cancer, I slept in his hospice bed with him and was the only one there, holding him when he died..

This was a guy that had pretended to be a good friend to my husband. After my husband died, he wasted no time letting me know he wasn't going to give me emotional support, wasn't going to be sweet to me like my husband was, could not relate to the love my husband and I shared, said he'd never loved anybody that much. Of course all the divorces were the crazy women's fault. I was just so scared and alone that I was willing to put up with a lot to try to make it work even though he's not 1/4 of the man my husband was. Things went downhill fast when he started asking for a friends with benefits situation. He lived out of state, wanted to know if we could meet occasionally and "do it" and go home. LOL. Umm, no we can't Thank you for your responses. It was just a weird day yesterday.

I contacted a guy today that I had thought we were headed toward a relationship after my husband died. But there were many excuses on his part for not doing that, didn't want a long distance relationship, didn't want me to move in with him because he has OCD, I didn't understand his relationship problems because he has been married four times and they all ended in divorce and all I know is one beautiful happy marriage that ended with my husbands death. I contacted him only to ask him to delete our steamy text messages from back then. They just made me uncomfortable when I thought about it. He informed me that he had deleted it all a while back, because he's in a relationship and has been for a while. And she's "so sweet" and understands prior bad relationships. I was nothing but sweet to him. He was mean to me. I'm not even sure why this is bothering me, I guess it just seems like everyone is just moving on with life and I just can't. I had nowhere to go for Thanksgiving or Christmas, I was alone. Holidays are for families and I don't have one. I am so sick of this "life."

I wish I lived near you, I would love to see fireworks this year. Not going alone though. But I do understand, the same thing happened to me last year. I was embarrassed to blatantly hint that I wanted to tag along and see the fireworks show with what I thought were good friends. But I really didn't want to be alone because it was always a fun holiday for my husband and me. They said they weren't going. Then I saw the pictures on Facebook. I called and asked about it. She very casually said that they had changed their mind at the last minute, too late to let me know. I used to say Mean people suck. But I've learned it's more like Most people suck.

Jason, God bless you for being strong enough to overlook the ugly comments. Not only having to deal with such a tragic accident, but then to have these trolls spewing venom at you..so sickening. You just keep being that sweet strong man I saw in your video.

Colon cancer.. I was his only caregiver. He lived for 2 years after the diagnosis. It was just the two of us when he died in June 2013. I died with him.