Gabzmom Posted July 9, 2015 Share Posted July 9, 2015 It was Monday. I had a couple of triggers - one, last week, was when a friend dropped my daughter off at the wrong gate of a military installation to walk to her job. It was the wrong gate (I had told them both which gate if the friend could not get a pass) and was a few miles in blazing heat. I got a frantic message that DD was going to be late for work. I panicked when I found out and fortunately, a kind woman on post gave her a lift and she got to work on time. I headed back to the office and in the middle of my drive literally broke down. Another was that dumb FB memories feed for Monday. I got all the photos a friend took at my husband's burial in that feed. It made me relive that day. I could feel my heart in my chest and have had tears the last few days - always alone and always in my car. The only place I feel safe to open up is here. I wasn't expecting it all to come back. However, this time, unlike each saddiversary before, I let the sadness wash over me. I am better now and really, I am okay. And this time, I was okay not to be okay... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest mawidow Posted July 10, 2015 Share Posted July 10, 2015 ok not to be ok takes enormous grace and grit. sending much support your way. hugs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trying Posted July 10, 2015 Share Posted July 10, 2015 Adding my support and totally understand that here is the one place you feel you can open up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IfIonlycould Posted July 10, 2015 Share Posted July 10, 2015 Totally get it...and this IS the place where we can come and let it out. The FB thing is awful....having to relive by seeing those pictures. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jen Posted July 12, 2015 Share Posted July 12, 2015 (((((HUGS)))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MissingSquish Posted July 13, 2015 Share Posted July 13, 2015 Huge hugs! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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