A good description of how I currently feel

[Dark Rose]

?Fresh grief feels like this: Your mind is a maze and every pathway leads to a bricked-up wall, the one where you can see the real world just on the other side, but you can?t reach it. It?s a feeling like someone?s scooped out your insides with a spoon and all that?s left is a shell that walks like you and talks like you, but your body and soul have parted ways for a time. Your senses don?t fire and you can?t connect with another human being because to string all that grief together like a strand of paper dolls would create something as powerful as an atom bomb?you?d implode. So you?re all alone. And, for a short while, at least until it sinks in, you can fake anything.?

― Vikki Wakefield

 

 

[Jen]

YES. Yes, yes, YES.

[Catnip]

Yes.

 

And another, by Edna St. Vincent Millay:

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night."

[donswife]

wow catnip that one describes the feeling perfectly

[Dark Rose]

ahh catnip how accurate.... I dread night time for a reason but I am the most real when alone, and so I am afraid of my pain then