MR

Maureen,

It takes guts to do what you are doing. You are a gem.

Hugs

Manoj

I have made my LW and kids pic as lock screen on phone and her solo pic as background screen. This way i get to see her everytime I touch phone which happens like 1000 times a day.

I am so sorry to hear about your sister condition. Hug and prayers for you and your loved ones.

Hi kflex,

Sorry for your loss and welcome to group nobody wants to join. All firsts are going to be tough to go thru so hold on the pain will lesson and we also learn to cope with it.

Hugs

Manoj

Just want to say Thanks to everyone on this board.

Big Hugs Maureen

Sorry you have to go thru this Jdubb. I had to remove the ventilator too. Sometimes life doesn't give you another chance. Good you can think positive that both at peace.

So sorry for your loss Nymets1986. Take one day or hour at a time. Take care of yourself and kids.

So sorry for your loss. That is a beauty of this group that we understand and support each other. I hope you find some peace soon.

Hi Top,

So sorry for your loss.

Yes this Silence has become part of our life. I am little more than a year out but want to tell her so many things but know can`t.

Sorry was away for few days so didn't see. Let me know next time you are in neighbourhood

I am also doing something different this MA and her birthday thinking might bring some changes in me. I am 1 year 3 months out. Let's see how it goes. Next month is MA.

I am part of a meetup group which is mainly consists of divorced or separated people. I can see how we have different perspective of family. They think I am better off as I don't have to deal with X issues and I feel that i wish she was alive and divorced so that I can at least see her and kids will still have Mom. They sometimes think they are single parents and then I explain how I am single parent and they are separated parents. I always say

I would do / give anything to see my spouse and they would do/give anything not to see their spouse.

Peace

Manoj

I am little more than 1 year out but have noticed that the anger has gone down. My believe on some of the things I use to do considering god has shaken but still believe god. Hopefully this feeling of emptiness will go away or reduce but only time will tell. Good thing is that now I am trying to find or discover or reinvent myself .

Hugs

Manoj

2 Milk half sweetener.

Pizza or burger

Normally if you deposit there shouldn't be any issues unless the issuer's raises one. I have deposited my wife cheque and also my kids cheques.

Hugs Maureen,

Sorry for what you are going thru. I myself is not good at expressing it myself specially in writing but do go thru the forum and relate to most of them.

Hugs

Manoj

boyo1991,

So sorry to see you in this forum. Life is roll coaster and will be like this for a while. I am one year out but life is still same except pain is less and brain is able to think about some other stuff.

Peace

Congrats....

Brought a smile to my face.

I had similar experience few times. Last night friend not in touch for a while called to give his condolence and said he can understand as he also went in depression 2 years back when his dad passed away. I was like no dude it is not same but didn't wanted to say it to his face.

One time one divorced women told me you are better off as you have good memories about her unlike them who have bad memories about their marriage and spouse.

Sending strength and hugs

Manoj

I agree beth_krkswidow firsts are never going to finish.. Kids first degree etc and list keeps on going but the only thing which changes is our way of coping with them..

Manoj

Beautiful words..

Hugs

Manoj

Great. Keep it going.