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I haven't watched it yet but I knew it would happen because of the police at the door at the end of the last episode (huge trigger for me) and the fact that they were so freaking happy lately... just characters on a TV show but way too close to home for me... I still want to watch it but I might wait until I have plans for right after so I don't wallow!

Sorry to hear it's rough right now- depression on top of grief can be a beast... I know that physical and mental heaviness, it is suffocating. Good to hear you are seeing a doctor and counsellor- sometimes a med change is needed... If I could magically help you get away on a tropical vacation for a couple weeks I would- sometimes a change of scenery and distraction helps, even though obviously it doesn't fix anything. I remember you helping me out on the old boards so thanks for that. Have you ever read any books by Ram Dass? You might like "Still Here"- its supposed to be for "aging" people but I found it really relevant to being a 34 year old widow... Wishing you easier days ahead.

Oh gracelet, I love your stories- lord knows I won't have any of mine own anytime soon, which is perfectly fine by me, so keep em coming! (No pun intended.) Safety first- and enjoy!

Leaving Saturday with my toddler daughter and two girlfriends for two weeks In Costa Rica!! So excited. I really didn't think this would ever happen... ie. take her somewhere awesome while she's so little. I've been fortunate to travel a lot but this'll be pretty different- so grateful my two girlfriends wanted to take a trip with us. not sure how many toddler melt-downs will happen on the plane but what can ya do. (Tips appreciated!) A huge step towards living a life as a family of two.

I hear ya! I'm fortunate that my daughter doesn't have serious medical issues but just being a solo working parent of a little one... Seriously if I do meet someone he'll literally have to come knocking on my door (and find his way through the chaos that is my home.) That said, a year before I met DH I had given up on dating... Had a bad break up and didn't so much as look twice at any guy until one day there was this hot guy in goofy swim goggles at the pool who changed my life... I'm just over a year out and have to agree- "chapter 2" happiness doesn't have to include a new man. At this point for me it would just complicate things and I don't have the time or energy. wishing you happiness whatever it's form for you.

Me! C and I were engaged and he died suddenly (accident) 5 months before the wedding. We had the date/ location booked and I just picked out the style of dress I wanted the DAY before he died. WTF??? Our daughter was two months old at the time. Just over a year out and am doing well all things considered. Crazy how much has changed though- living back in my hometown, new job, very different life... I miss him every day and wish he was here to share this parenting/ life thing but I'm learning, slowly, to accept all the changes.