Michael797

I don't think anyone answered you yet. Best guess is to click the "Preview" button next to "Post" and you'll see a buncha buttons and smileys pop up above the text box. The one with the globe will allow you to paste in a link to a picture (presumably on photobucket or whatever you use). I'm gonna test the theory - please stand by: Yep, it worked. This, btw, is the only pic that I have of the two of us, but we were pretty happy then.

Jeez, you wids are creeping me out. I'm home alone tonight working on music, but I frankly look pretty good - and I picture you all sitting around with day-old beards and scratching yourselves. Tell you what - if you need me, throw a flip-flop or something. I do sincerely wish you all a lovely evening, though.

Some additions to the original list: 13. Saw the word "cancer" on a member's profile and almost wrote back "Cool, I'm a Pisces." For a split second, it didn't register; thinking clearly is such an adventure now. 14. You turn on the GPS. Under destination, you type in "out of Hell." Over and over you hear "recalculating." It looks like the same world, but there's more plastic. If I'm going to be a ghost, I choose to be a poltergeist; maybe if I throw a chair against a wall now and then, someone will actually pay attention. 15. Saw this old, old man, all hunched over and with a cane, hobbling into a restaurant, and thought ?lucky bastard.? 16. Where did all my friends go? Do I have the smell of death ON me or something? 17. Watched the kid playing his video game ? blood and guts everywhere ? and just shrugged and thought ?I?ve seen worse.? 18. Ever lie awake at night fantasizing about all the virtual hugs you?ve gotten from people? 19. Amazing weight loss program ? lose ten pounds in just two weeks! Results may vary (depending on how cute the pizza guy is). 20. I wonder if you could get thrown out of a grief group for ?bringing everyone down too much.? 21. Here?s the problem. You were intending on spending the rest of your life with this person because he or she taught you what love really is; love works best when it?s being transferred back and forth between two people. It?s that constant flow from one to the other that builds up that energy, that euphoria. And you think that now that you?ve found that person to give and receive all of that love with, you?re going to be able to feel that bliss forever and ever and ever?. And then suddenly the other person?s gone. And now you have this huge backup of love that you?ve been collecting and growing? and suddenly you have absolutely nowhere to go with it. And you?re feeling actual physical and emotional pain because it?s so built up inside of you. If you could only, somehow, someway, release some of it - even just a tiny bit of it?. Originally Posted By: Banjeen Next time I see him I'm going to hold him for a century, then yell at him for a year. Banjeen, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH for sharing that quote! That's all from Hell for this time. Please don't return again soon.

RE-resurrected from previous incarnations. Dearest Newbie: If you've found your way here to widda.org, you've come across one of the most extraordinary resources one could ever have to help you through widowhood. What makes this place even more astonishing is the fact that it was built by widows for widows in the face of overwhelming adversity (our old board was shut down literally overnight and without warning - sound familiar?). The following thread was resurrected from the old board to provide an example - whatever it is you might be going through right now is probably frighteningly NORMAL. Your journey will be scary and brutal; trust will be almost impossible to come by. You're attempting to build an entirely new life from the ground up and with no prior experience whatever. This board provides testimony that it can be and has been done by many others. That list will eventually include you. At any rate, the following reposts hopefully illustrate what sort of thoughts might be going through your head right about now. Please feel free to comment or add to them. And never for one second think that you're alone - you have the collective force of a group every bit as strong as the Marine Corps behind you. Use that however you need. The following repost was dated 10/16/14; at that time, the author was nearly three months out. A compendium of thoughts that I would never have had six months ago. Hey, kids - play along and add your own! 1. Sometimes it?s fun to watch the reactions of some people when you tell them. You see their eyes roll back in their heads, and their mouths form into this weird grimace ? and you see the look spread over their faces as if they just stepped in a huge pile of rhinoceros shit. Or when they just gape at you like your tongue shot out about two feet to snag a gnat. Sometimes I wish that the news gave them a migraine. 2. Sometimes I fantasize about my deathbed, in the hope that she?ll be the one in the light who?s come for me, and I?ll get to see her and be with her again. 3. It still hits me out of nowhere ? little moments for no apparent reason ? when I once again realize ?She?s dead, Jim.? And the initial shock takes me all over again. It?s this horrible Twilight Zone episode where you just keep reliving that nightmare over and over and over.... 4. Could this be a form of PTSD? 5. I wonder if she?s hanging out with Robin Williams and Joan Rivers. I?m jealous. 6. I still don?t know why she can?t just give me the damn lottery numbers in a dream. 7. Did she really go somewhere? Did she not? I?m not sure how to handle either possibility. 8. Sometimes I realize how odd it is of me to be counting the weeks and months ? is it a way we measure our recovery? Is it some sort of anniversary from hell? 2014 will forever be ?The Summer of Death? to me. 9. Everything in life is a choice ? why am I not able to choose to get past this? 10. Is it possible to be octo-polar? 11. No matter what I hated, she always hated it more. I loved her so much for that. 12. I?ve gotten to the point where the song I couldn?t stand to hear after she died is now an opportunity ? every so often ? to listen to it again and imagine where we both were when we first heard it together. And for just those few precious minutes, I?m with her again. I?m so grateful to be able to feel that.

Ok, speaking as a relative newbie, this entire thread is the most astonishing thing I've seen yet on ANY board. Not to come off as a groupie (too late), but the thoughts and insights you folks are expressing are not only profound but grammatically correct. There clearly is a lot to be said for being a seasoned veteran. Let television devalue wisdom for immaturity; here, it can be respected. And every word of this thread commands the deepest respect. Do with that what you will. But you don't have to leave on my account.

azjane, I believe this is what Sally was referring to. Here's a bunch of bumper stickers from a 2014 post: 1. Red, bled, and dead ? nobody rides free. 2. My other car is a Hearse. 3. If you can read this, you?re about to meet my spouse. 4. This vehicle stops at all widowbagos. 5. Warning: driver has widow brain 6. 10-4, dead buddy. 7. You have NO idea how fucking lucky you are. 7a. Try raising three honor students by yourself! 8. My baby?s in Heaven, but I went to Hell (Shameless promotion) 9. I brake for hysterical sobbing. 10. Heaven took back the angel it was missing. 11. I have no idea where I?m going. 12. Happy people suck. Jenni's info is correct, the station will be open again by St. Pat's. Forgive me, folks - irony once again is supplying unprecedented payback. I'm coping pretty well with the dead. It's the living who are killing me. See ya soon - congrats and thanks for the board. And thank you as always to all you precious listeners.