I remember that SCREAM very well almost 9yrs later. As a matter of fact, I had a plastic keychain figure of Edvard Munch's "The Scream" I carried daily for years - its now safely kept in a memory box.Whenever I was away from home and felt the need to scream (always!) I'd grab hold of it and rub it till the feeling subsided.
About being single - I'm good with it! As soon as I adjusted to not being married and got through the worst of grief, I was good to go. It was alot of hard work to get there, but I was determined to heal myself.In doing so, it also meant no dating, recoupling, remarriage, no sex, nada, zip, no thank you to any of it. That is not to say I didn't think about it when my fears were at a high level as a possible escape. What it did do is make me confront my fears over and over again till I had a grasp on it/them. It empowered me over the things I could control.
Hope this helps!