Needytoo Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 The last three weeks have been extremely stressful. The job I was doing for the last 4 years on a contract basis at the college was finally posted. Which is great but if I didn't get the job then that meant I didn't have any job. So here I am working on another three week contract waiting and waiting for the interview. I was doing all I could to keep calm but I still couldn't sleep very well. On Thursday I had the interview and HR told me it would take them another week to decide and that they couldn't extend my contract. I asked my supervisor what do I do about next week do I just come in and fake it. He said yes. Yesterday right before leaving I got a call from my supervisor to come to his office. I got the job and I also got a whole bunch of teaching hours. For the next four months I will have no life but I have a permanent job. Right after the news you would think I would be over the top with happiness but I was just so mentally exhausted I felt nothing till my drive home. Then I was totally over whelmed. I went back to school so my family could have a better life that my husband could stop driving truck and get back into sales something he loved. But guess that isn't going to happen. I got my dream and he didn't. I cried all the way home. I slept for 11 hours and still feel a little tired. Hoping the coffee starts to do its job. I got my dream job I did it because of my husband. He worked so hard for me to go back to school we sacrificed so much. Dammit I need more coffee and I need to stop crying and just be happy. I have wanted this for so long. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MrsDan Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 YAAAAAY!!!!!!!!! I'm so glad you got the job and that what has been a huge burden off your shoulders. But. I completely understand the mixed feelings and I validate you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wheelerswife Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 I am so glad you got the job! So much of this life is bittersweet, isn't it? I'm in school and changing careers because of the opportunity afforded when I met John, my second husband. But....he isn't here to see me through it, either. Hugs...and more sleep. And just remember that semesters come to an end and there is a break in the intensity. (That is what I have to tell myself!) Maureen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guaruj Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 Congratulations! I could see all along how stressful this was for you. Right after the news you would think I would be over the top with happiness but I was just so mentally exhausted I felt nothing till my drive home. Then I was totally over whelmed. I went back to school so my family could have a better life that my husband could stop driving truck and get back into sales something he loved. But guess that isn't going to happen. I got my dream and he didn't. I cried all the way home. I slept for 11 hours and still feel a little tired. Hoping the coffee starts to do its job. I got my dream job I did it because of my husband. He worked so hard for me to go back to school we sacrificed so much. Dammit I need more coffee and I need to stop crying and just be happy. I have wanted this for so long. I don't blame you for feeling exhausted. It is disgraceful to subject an employee to such a charade for the sake of keeping her current job. It's even more offensive when one considers that you lost your husband recently. So, again - congratulations! I hope you don't experience this level of BS again for a long time. |+| M a r k |+| Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jen Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 ((((Hugs))))) Congrats!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mmg19 Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 Congrats on the job. You've just been through an exhausting process and now it is time to rest. Sorry your #1 supporter is not there to share it with you. Preparation is the key to most successes in life and you have proven it true again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
momtokam Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 Woohooo!!!!! Biggest (((hugs))) for you too!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
twistedmensa Posted September 12, 2015 Share Posted September 12, 2015 Congrats on getting the permanent position. I am the queen of conflicting emotions, so I totally get that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Needytoo Posted September 13, 2015 Author Share Posted September 13, 2015 Yesterday after 5 coffees and taking 4 advils I started to feel human again. The exact same grief triggers switched to gratitude and it felt great. The stress that contract work has given has been lifted off my shoulders. I have my job that should get me to retirement. It was a long road but I got it. Good luck to you Maureen. I was 42 years old when I went back to school and I wish I went back years ago. Guess I made an impression since I did get hired for the contract work. It is going to be a hard semester but I think mentally I am ready for it. I also told the research department I would be the lead of 3 projects that might have to wait. Thank you to everyone else for your kind words. It does mean a lot. The response from work colleagues also has been amazing. It fills my heart. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trying Posted September 13, 2015 Share Posted September 13, 2015 Congratulations! I know how stressful this has been for you. I completely understand how hard it is to not be able to share the good news. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
linda5 Posted September 13, 2015 Share Posted September 13, 2015 So happy for you! Yours and your husband's hard work paid off. You got the job!!! Enjoy your success, as you earned it! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SoVerySad Posted September 13, 2015 Share Posted September 13, 2015 Congratulations on getting the full-time position! You deserved it! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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