keeptrying Posted November 27, 2016 Share Posted November 27, 2016 Out of the blue, after two years, I realized the day he killed himself was the same exact day he asked me to marry him so many years before. I don't even know what to think about that. I miss him every second of the day. I just feel so lost without him. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Adley Posted November 28, 2016 Share Posted November 28, 2016 I lurked here a while after joining. I think this is is the third time i read all your posts. That is a major hit you just took. I can't imagine how you feel, I just want to tell you there is no way on earth he knew/thought about that when he made that decision. Hugs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WifeLess Posted November 28, 2016 Share Posted November 28, 2016 keeptrying, Having met, both online and in person, a number of other survivors of their spouses' suicides, I have learned that our path towards healing can be a very long and treacherous one. Often, the pain subsides, but as you say, never goes away completely. Sorry for this difficult road you must travel. --- WifeLess Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
First Widow Posted November 28, 2016 Share Posted November 28, 2016 (((HUGS))) I think a part of our brains will always continue to work on solving the puzzle of making sense out of the senseless. I can be having a great time out with friends and suddenly my brain digs up something like that and I'm frozen in horror while trying to keep a smile on my face. The only way I've been able to put these things "away" has been through journaling. It gives me peace for a while until my brain goes on autopilot again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MR Posted November 28, 2016 Share Posted November 28, 2016 Huge hugs to you. When you start thinking you try to connect points. My wife had medical injury a day before we meet 20 years back and then I was told by Doctors that she is brain dead on my birthday when I was expecting her life as gift from god. More we think more this kind of connections we make. Sorry for you loss. MR Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
piecesofapart Posted December 4, 2016 Share Posted December 4, 2016 You are right, the hurt does not go away...hopefully some days it's less than others. Wishing you better days... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amor Posted January 13, 2017 Share Posted January 13, 2017 I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Amor Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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