Amor

Rising above chos, I like your username. You are trying to rise above this. A word is just that it is how you see yourself. I choke on the word because for me I do not want it to be true with all of my heart. I want my love to be waiting for me or sitting in the chair next to me when someone asks where is your husband? Widow does not need to define you. But it is a reality now. One that is more painful than anyone can imagine. Say what you need to say at the moment you decide to say it. It is ok to not talk about it at times too. Wishing you peace beyond understanding. Amor

Hi Gem, I am so sorry you are going through this. Winston Churchill " When you find yourself in hell keep going. I have found this helpful. It does not seem to move on but having to go through grief in our own journey. This hell on earth is unbelievably hard. Treat yourself as if you are healing from a really bad burn. The pain will lessen but you will always have a scar. Wishing you peace and comfort through these rough days. Amor

I am in Alaska sometimes. Where were you thinking?

I still wear his clothes on occasion to bed Look at the empty chair next to me often and think you should be sitting there. Wishing no one would sit there but my love. still have a hard time saying or admitting the W word. Like it would change, if I do not say it then it is not true mentality. Like watching movies we enjoyed together.

Yes, trips can be very addictive.

I do like the silence. Alone where no one sees the tears. Making is easier to hide the pain.

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love.” ― Washington Irving

I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. Amor

I am sorry you are having a hard time sleeping. The strangest moments caught us and the waves hit. Sometimes knocking us to the ground others for a moment of silence with our beloved. Wishing you sweet dreams and restful nights with peaceful days. Amor

“If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them.” ― James O'Barr

I am happy you were able to savor the moments you had together and that he could be in your life! Wishing you peace today and fr years to come. Amor

Sadness comes even without a reason. We lost the Love of our life we have every right to brake down. (((hugs))) Amor

Hi (((Jen))), I wish our Loves were here by our side right now. I wish we never had to feel this pain. I am reminded of a quote you shared with me some time ago. "When you find yourself in hell keep going." We are still in hell please help me find a way out. With Love your friend, Amor

Ruth, I hope you can have peace with decision you had to make. Yes, we have to make so many decision alone now. Wishing for comfort and peace during this painful time in your life. Amor

Kate, Thank you for that perspective. (((Jen))) Wishing you peace in where you are in this healing process. I wish this would go faster but I know healing takes a lot more time. It is good to cry in your safe place, it helps. Amor