Guest IronBear Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 This has been a bad week. Laurie has been visiting my dreams again and I found a bunch of photos while cleaning that triggered the dark place again. I drank a whole bottle of wine last night while watching Dexter on Netflix, not a good sign. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ATJ Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 "The leaves of memory seemed to make a mournful rustling in the dark." ~~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow Iron Bear, Memories can be very powerful, and I'm sorry to hear that they have been haunting you. It's strange when people look at us, who are so much further out, and seem to assume that we have become more or less impervious and inured to those triggers. Time, the much touted healer, sometimes can only provide a flimsy Band-Aid that comes off easily. Memories are always my Achilles heel, and I try to block them out as much as possible, sad to say. Often I wish I had a magic eraser because once I give into them, it's downhill from there. "Memory may be a paradise from which we cannot be driven, it may also be a hell from which we cannot escape." ~~ John Lancaster Spalding I hope that the dark clouds will part soon and sunlight will break through. Wishing you Peace and Serenity. ATJ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BrokenHeart2 Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 So sorry to hear you are struggling Bear. Hugs to you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bluebird Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 (((((Iron Bear)))))), I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling. I'm so glad you shared it here with us. One day at a time right? Hoping you wake in the morning with a little less darkness and a lot more light. Take care, Bluebird Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nuggets Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 Hugs from the Great White North.... Isn't it amazing at how close the abyss is --- there, just at the edge of consciousness. Stay here with us, Bear. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IfIonlycould Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 Bear sending (((HUGS))) try to get outside today...head to the water and try to find some peace....I'm sorry you are going through this... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest marian1953 Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 I am sorry, Barney. Marian Happy Easter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
patriciad Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 I am sorry to hear that the grief waves are hitting you. I agree with A Tout Jamais-oftentimes people look at us like we should kind of be "over it" by now. The triggers are always there-sometimes just below the surface. They catch me unexpectedly and it still hurts so deeply. ((((Hugs)))) Pat Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
marjoe Posted April 5, 2015 Share Posted April 5, 2015 Hugs, Barney. I hope the darkness lifts for you. I know that place very well. And...maybe Dexter was a little too much, you know? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Grammy Posted April 6, 2015 Share Posted April 6, 2015 ((Bear Hugs Barney)) I have been having the same problem. I think ATJ is right. The triggers are right there tearing off the bandaid of time. I know my trigger was the passing of my bil and memorial service on Wednesday. I had to go through the dreaded memorial service box for pictures. Then spend day with the in-laws. I ended up hanging on to one of my husband's buddies I haven't talked to in years. ((Hugs)) holidays Just suck. (Hugs) hoping the haunting dreams leave quickly Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BrokenHeart2 Posted April 6, 2015 Share Posted April 6, 2015 Hi Bear I'm feeling in the dark place too. Sorry your are there too. We will persevere Hugs to you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest IronBear Posted April 7, 2015 Share Posted April 7, 2015 Thanks, peeps! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest IronBear Posted April 8, 2015 Share Posted April 8, 2015 The veil is starting to lift. I never talk about this stuff in real life so thanks for letting me here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ursula Posted April 9, 2015 Share Posted April 9, 2015 Really glad to hear that Iron Bear, I hope it keeps lifting- take good care of yourself Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest look2thesky Posted April 9, 2015 Share Posted April 9, 2015 I am experiencing much of the same. They say don't give up. I wish I had more strength. Very bad start to the new year. Hoping it gets better, for all of us. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Grammy Posted April 10, 2015 Share Posted April 10, 2015 ((((Hugs)))) I am glad it is getting a bit better Barney. I am glad we all found a place to talk. (((Hugs))) and Love <3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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